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Wednesday, December 23rd, 2009
4:24 am	Ending song from the Fatal Fury: The New Battle OAV (Cant find the English lyrics) youki na kaze ni tsutsumarete usumuki nagara te o furu kokyuu ga hora sukoshi hayakute nozoita kimi ga warau mado o sukoshi dake aketara soko ni wa omae no egao ga nagarete yuku Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (omae no tame ni) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (my eternity) Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (my eternity) Keep on Calling omae no tame ni takanaru omoi o mune ni mezameta asa wa setsunakute nigedashite mo mitsumete itai negai wa kanaerareru kono kaze ni notte omae no soba made konna ore dakedo sagashiteru Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (omae no tame ni) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (my eternity) Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (my eternity) Keep on Calling omae no tame ni mado o sukoshi dake aketara soko ni wa sou ooki maku mo ga futari no kokoro sou tsutsunde yuku sa kitto Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (omae no tame ni) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling (wow wow wow wow wow wow) Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling omae no tame ni (Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling) (Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling) (Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling) (Keep on Calling Keep on Calling Keep on Calling) Current Mood: loved Current Music: "Calling" (In my head) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
12:35 pm	"I break the silence with my voice and everyone turns around to see the source of all the noise and here i stand its not as thought i mean to upset you with the things i say and do i should know better but i said so anyway its easier to play a part and read your lines than freely speak what's in your heart and in your mind Is it me? who says these things that so offend you? Innapropriate and loud i'd say I'm sorry but it's hard to speak with both feet in your mouth all hail the king of dunces You best hold on I'm opening up my mouth bring out the maypole and tie me up and shut me out devil knows what possessed me to shoot my arrow straight into the sky string me to the mast and hoist me up and hang me high i put no blame on you i brought this all upon myself it's just this thing i do at times like this i wish i was someone else there's a lever inside head between my mouth and my brain keeps me from hearing what i've said until its too late now it's too late smear my lips with vaseline because i'm a vocal libertine I try to explain but even i'm not quite sure what i mean all hail the king of dunces You best hold on I'm opening up my mouth bring out the maypole and tie me up and shut me out devil knows what possessed me to shoot my arrow straight into the sky string me to the mast and hoist me up and hang me high i put no blame on you i brought this all upon myself it's just this thing i do at times like this i wish i was someone else I don't know what to say i was only trying to make you smile and bring some needed levity to your world for a while i never meant to make you cry but i did it all by myself its just this thing i do at times like this i wish i was someone else All hail the king of dunces... All hail the king of fools This boy's been bad let's keep him after school send me to the blackboard and write a hundred times "i am the dunce" devil knows what possessed me to shut my mind and open up my mouth string me to the anchor and watch me drown in myself" Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: "Dunce" Voltaire
Saturday, August 15th, 2009
11:16 am	Appetite and self control, I am disappointed in you last night through this morning (though all healthy stuff, just too many calories from eating too much). Should have gotten the side salad from Outback Steakhouse because I even said to Daniel "That was just not enough I am still really hungry". Now I have to go run to burn those extra calories off, thanks a lot. Geez. Also, sodium content in Wawa build-you-own-salad grilled chicken. Grr. Plus, getting sunflower seeds for crunchy and extra meat throws off the amout of calories that I am ok with for such a large salad. Guess Ill have to drop my extras on that. Good thing I am already at what my original goal was, so this may be my shakey week - I kind of feel that way anyway, about this week. Yes, it is only me to blame, I just needed to vent it. Current Mood: frustrated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 2nd, 2009
9:36 pm	"Superman" by Five For Fighting I cant stand to fly Im not that naive Im just out to find The better part of me Im more than a bird...Im more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train Its not easy to be me Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie About a home Ill never see It may sound absurd...but dont be naive Even heroes have the right to bleed I may be disturbed...but wont you concede Even heroes have the right to dream Its not easy to be me Up, up and away...away from me Its all right...you can all sleep sound tonight Im not crazy...or anything... I cant stand to fly Im not that naive Men werent meant to ride With clouds between their knees Im only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me Inside of me Inside me Yeah, inside me Inside of me Im only a man In a funny red sheet Im only a man Looking for a dream Im only a man In a funny red sheet And its not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm... Its not easy to be me Current Mood: melancholy
Thursday, July 30th, 2009
10:20 pm	A recent pic (8 Comments |Comment on this)
7:08 pm	Insanity... I haz it So today I did the run with Mr Pope's 20lb vest. I was going to run with the ball as well but he suggested with my joint problems that probably is not a good idea - poo! Though, I can honestly say, that with my best efforts I am NEVER putting that weight back on. Our best time this tiem around with the medicine balls was 4 minutes and 18 seconds. With 20lbs back on, it took me 5 minutes and 2 seconds - which is certainly better than last year but still I dont want to put that back on. Oh yeah, did I mentioned so far I have lost 20lbs since right before Memorial Day? So I was just running with only my lost body weight today, you catch my drift. LOL Tomorrow I am going running with a 3 gallon jug of water (equivalent to 8lbs which is the weight of the ball I will be running with on the test and that I currently use). I am deadly serious about this. Current Mood: determined (Comment on this)
12:25 am	Quick thought There shall be an update over the next few days - when I can find the time. Some of it may be old news to some of you guys, but for the newer folks in my life (including old but new friends *hint hint*) here will be what has been going on with me the past few years (new updates as well though). Muhahaahaaaaa Why am I up this late when I have to be up at 5am? Because though I wanted to leave the karate school at 915, I wound up having a few really nice conversations and not leaving til 1030, and then trying to wind down a bit. Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 27th, 2009
10:22 pm	Addition to the Dayne Traveler post There is also a group on Facebook, where you literally put Dayne Traveler in the search and there it is! It is in the works but feel free to join. We will be updating it frequently. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
3:58 pm	The Adventures of Dayne Traveler To my friends out here in Livejournal-land who enjoy a good story or two or three or.... A very good friend of mine has written a book of the many adventures he has had, thus the title of the book being The Adventures of Dayne Traveler. In this book you will find a man who has an extreme lust for life and it shows within the stories of swimming with the sharks, venturing into bear caves, among other things. To tell you the truth, within this book the theme of stepping out of your comfort zone is very apparent, the book itself even inspired me to step out of my own comfort zone. I was asked to preview his 2nd book in the series. While the 1st book was pretty fun to read on its own, and in the 2nd book he is up to his usual antics, the 2nd book the stories themselves are more fully developed and you get a deeper look into the man behind the hat - and you thought you had that in the 1st book, just wait!. You'll laugh, you may cry, and you'll certainly get a thrill through Dayne's eyes. From reading both books I guarantee you wont be disappointed. I have known Dayne for some time now (I have even been on a few - more mild - adventures with him) and he always has something going on. Is he controversial....yes. Is he complex....yes. But this makes him the interesting character he is. Want more info? You can either find a link here http://www.danielpopekarate.com/index2.html or the book's website http://www.daynetraveler.com/ ...Yep, you guessed it *grin* Dayne Traveler is the pen name for Daniel Pope. If you are at all interested, Dayne Traveler/Daniel Pope has made available to me some promotional copies of his 1st book for you, and no, dont worry, I have you covered. Just let me know. As for copies of the 2nd book? Well, you'll just have to wait for the release party. Current Mood: excited (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 22nd, 2009
9:59 pm	So I had a few weeks in a row that I hit the wall with my weight. I would break a certain weight, and then the next day Id put it right back on and we could not figure out what was wrong. I was eating well except for a bite here or there to keep me sane but some how I just could not move forward with this. My motivation was really slipping. I knew I wanted it and was so close, but could not figure out what was going on. Nor did Mr Pope. Daniel even got proactive about helping me out when I was tempted telling me I would regret it if I ate that thing - the only thing I knowingly ate or drank that I had no issues was when I was up at Sensei's house a few weeks ago I had a beer with him in memory of Uncle Ray (http://silvertabby.livejournal.com/799846.html). Anyway. Mr Pope and I were both frustrated that I could not get past this. So he called up a former student who is now a personal trainer and asked her to give me a suggestion or two about how I could tweak the diet because its obviously not my excercise routine that is the problem and my diet seemed ok. With her suggestions I added a few things, took a few things away, and Viola! I just weighed myself before I left the school tonight and it is a record for my goal. Not there yet but so close I can taste it - no pun intended. Once my ultimate goal is met, it is going to be interesting to see what I have to do again to maintain without losing or gaining any more. With that being said.... Jereme and I are the craziest students Mr Pope has. I say this because... Monday we did the medicine ball run again (him with Mr Pope's 20lb vest on along with the medicine ball, me with just the heavier medicine ball)...4 minutes 22 seconds. He said he would never do it again with the vest on... Tonight...we ran again, him again with the vest (he said he felt better afterward), and me, with gear on and regular medicine ball - I had been using the heavier one with handles but as I got stronger I apparently can run with the thing, Imagine that. Our time: 4 minutes 28 seconds. The getting the weight off really did pay off. I could not do this last time... Current Mood: sore Current Music: "How Da Beat Goes On" Will Smith (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 15th, 2009
9:59 pm	Booya! 4 minutes 16 seconds. With Jereme - my partner in crime. WITH Medicine Ball. I have been fine without the ball but tonight I was wiped after the run. S'owell. Guess Ill do it again tomorrow (well the run part, then my normal workout)............."Getting strong now, won't be long now, getting strong now"............. Annnnnnnnnnd, only 6 pounds away from my original goal..... and only 11 pounds from what seemed like the impossible ultimate goal - the impossible ultimate is something I have not been since probably right before I met Daniel but that I have wanted for such a long time. Sorry guys, I think I may be updating this more and more as it gets closer because this means so much to me. Annnnnnd, I found the character sheet for my favorite D&D character I ever played, Penny Underfoot. Current Mood: happy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
4:58 pm	*Squeal* It premiers the night of my test. Current Mood: giddy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
10:02 pm	4 minutes and 35 seconds, bitches. Though without gear or the medicine ball itself, by the time the test comes around and I get to the weight I want to be, this should be the time I make with all that stuff added on. Could not do that my first time last year. Closer to the 6-7 minute range. Hell yeah! Current Mood: accomplished (7 Comments |Comment on this)
4:25 pm	"tranquil as a forrest, but a fire within, once you find your center you are sure to win" So there is something I have been keeping to myself for about 7 weeks now. I did not want to make a big deal out of it because if I failed, Id look like an ass - well not really, but Id feel like it. But now there is a variable in the scenario, so now I feel comfortable sharing. If you have noticed recently that I have been shrinking a bit and becoming somewhat finicky about my food, you are correct sir. I have been on a diet. I have tried over the past few years to find a diet that I could handle and that I would lose weight after the first week (normally I drop like 5 pounds the first week and nothing afterwards). Never happened. A wedding was approaching that I wanted to look my best and feel my best for and wanted to drop a little. Merely days after deciding this, a good friend of mine, Mr Pope, and I had a conversation about me losing weight. What timing! So, he put me on a workout regiment - mostly his but I added and took away according to what my body could handle - and a diet. He is a world champion - a few times over mind you - and in the past year as stated above, he has become a good friend of mine, so why not put my trust in him as my coach to help me accomplish this? So far I have lost almost 15 pounds, feel much more confident in myself and am quicker and have higher endurance than I did before. The diet itself, right now I am not at a point where I can do this, but in time I will be able to have a "fun day" where I can eat what I want and work it out afterwards. Not there yet. Quick note: I have never been one of those girls to whine about how fat I was or anything like that, I just wanted to feel better about myself, for me, not for anyone else. Anywho. Last Wednesday Mr Pope calls over to myself and Jereme and tells us that because we both work so hard, he is giving us the honor of letting us test for 3rd Dan in October, when we both only tested for 2nd close to a year to a year and a half ago. That is unheard of, the standard time frame for testing for 3rd Dan is 3 years. He does not test anyone unless he feels they are ready, but as he said to the group quite simply when he was announcing the upcoming tests, when referring to the both of us, that "Do I really need to explain myself here about these two?" and everyone shook their heads in agreement. With this being said, my workouts will increase and my diet more strict - I allowed myself "bites" here and there so I would not go insane, but I have to get more strict for the test, sorry folks I eat with. I have begun to run again in preparation for the dreaded Medicine Ball run (http://silvertabby.livejournal.com/820523.html last years post about it), which I am going to try again for the first time in a year tonight. Yes, I am insane for this, but it makes me happy, and I am the one pushing me, not anyone else. The folks in my life who push me they push me, but nowhere near the way I do, so have no fear. The video below, the song always gets to me and the fact that I have been playing the song non-stop means that I am getting ready Current Mood: excited (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 27th, 2009
8:08 pm	I am thankful for weddings, funerals and babies. They always seem to bring people together. Current Mood: thankful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:06 pm	My favorite Michael Jackson song. Confidence may you get me through tonight, should it be necessary Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
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Sunday, May 17th, 2009
10:51 pm	I must have just laughed for about 5 minutes see more Lolcats and funny pictures Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 13th, 2009
10:11 pm	I have lots on my mind and lots going on in my life recently. Either I have no energy to try and articulate my thoughts or I just am not able to articulate them at all at the moment...which is odd because I have been told I articulate better in writing than I do verbally (which is very true). Maybe I have learned too well to be able to hold my tongue. I have other outlets so dont you worry, I am just apparently channeling what I am feeling in other ways. See, even right now I am trying to figure out what to write next without turing into Virginia Woolf. Of course always including The Bible, these words by the philosopher named Jagger have been my bread and butter over the past few months..... "You cant always get what you want, But if you try sometimes you might find, You get what you need". Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: "You Cant Always Get What You Want" Rolling Stones (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 12th, 2009
2:07 am	No, really I cant resist it. Happy Easter c/o Eddie Izzard "So the Pagan religion had very big festivals, remember, on Easter and Christmas. Christian religion came along and had very big festivals, at Easter and Christmas. Jesus died on one and was born on the other. Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm… Cause *cough* Jesus, I do think did exist. You know, and, uh, he, uh, was a, I think, uh, a guy who had interesting ideas in the Gandhi-type area, in the, umm, Nelson Mandela-type area. You know, relaxed and groovy. And, uh, the Romans thought, “Relaxed and groovy, nooo no no no no.” Umm, so they murdered him. And kids eat chocolate eggs, because of the color of the chocolate, and the color of the…wood on the cross. Well, you tell me! It’s got nothing to do with it, has it! You know, people going, uhh, “Remember kids,” the kids who’re eating the chocolate eggs, uhh, “Jesus died for your sins.” “Yeah, I know, it’s great! No, no no, it’s bad, it’s bad! No, it’s bad! It’s very bad. It’s terrible! Whatever you want, I mean – just keep giving me these eggs.” And the bunny rabbits! Where do they come into the crucifixion? There were no bunny rabbits up on the hill going, “Hey – you – what, are you going to put those crosses in our – bur – warrens? We live below this hill, all right?” Bunny rabbits are for shagging, eggs are for fertility. It’s a festival – it’s the spring festival! Christmastime, you know, Jesus, uhhh, born to a big jolly guy in a red jacket. “Ho, ho, ho! Ho, ho, ho, baby Jesus! And what would you like for Christmas?” “Peace on Earth and goodwill towards men.” “Well, what about a clockwork train?” “Oh, yes, much better. Forget – forget peace on earth, I don’t care." Current Mood: silly (Comment on this)